I remember when I was practically immobile from my chronic back pain. I was pushing 180 pounds and wearing a size 16 pants. Getting out of bed was becoming difficult. Walking was a chore. Many months of suffering, lots of negative thinking and plenty of self pity. There, got a mental picture of that??

Many things happened that lead me to getting off my ass and start taking care of my body. One of the very first things is a book I received from my sister, PrincessFaith. It is called Back Pain Relief The Ultimate Guide More than 100 physical and mental means of pain relief. It was this book, which I reluctantly started reading, that got me thinking. Positive thinking that is. A quote in the book by a Doctor named Sternbach says “chronic pain is a syndrome composed of a number of physical, emotional and behavioral changes which can convert otherwise healthy persons into invalids.”

While reading the book, I began to take control of my pain. Incorporating in my daily life positive visualization and affirmations, breathing exercises, core stability exercises, yoga, meditation, humor and proper form. Then natural health, preventive care, and all things I considered good for my well being.

It took many weeks before I started showing improvement, however I remember on several occasions when I gathered everyone in the house and made them watch me do something that I haven’t done in so long! Like that time I made Faith, Eban and Pat come in the living room and watch me lay on my back and lift both legs up until I was a 90% angle! What an accomplishment that was!

Monday morning, I took that book off the shelf and went outside to read. I set my surroundings as well as I could and I sat and read for about 2 hours. This book is truly reminding me of where I want to be as far as living with a healthy back. I do not have to live with back pain. My back is getting stronger each day.

If you suffer from Back Pain, I do suggest this book. You can buy it new or used here at half.com It gets you thinking in a positive way. Change the way you think and react to your pain. You may eliminate or drastically reduce your pain!

This book is wonderful. I read it over a year ago and forgot all about it. It is on my list of things to read again. These are the agreements

- Be impeccable with your word.
- Don’t take anything personally.
- Don’t make assumptions.
- Always do your best.

When I think of it, after I read this book I was doing fabulously super duper! Things were rocking and rolling. I was making money, doing what I said I was going to do, and trying and doing my best at everything! I remember writing about this a long time ago in my old live journal account….

then.. I drank a lot of Jagermeister and did bad Angel things.. and everything fell to shit.

I was reading a book learning of new ways to do my web page and I this book came fore front in my head and I had to go get it. It is in front of me. Reminding me.

anyway. I have just been feeling on edge lately, I fell a little bitter, a little frustrated, a little angry at myself for not taking charge of certain things…

Life is good, Pat is the best husband ever, Maryland is beautiful, I am living la viva loca baby!

Read the book.

I found this one in my Do It! Let’s Get Off Our Buts. We all must realize we are worthy. Worthy of success, love, and to live our dreams!

~Abraham Lincoln
It is difficult to make a man miserable while he feels he is worthy of himself and claims kindred to the great God who made him.

Now, if you paraphrase Lincoln in the negative which is what unworthiness always does.
“It is easy to make a man miserable while he feels he is unworthy of himself and not good enough to claim kindred to the great God who made him.”

Now, be worthy of yourself! It is absoutly necessary!!!